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I really, really don't like what they did with the site. It took me a good 5 minutes before I found the submit button.
Anyway, yeah, I know. My presence here has been lacking, mostly due to the fact that deviantart is geared towards art, and while it does support fanfiction format, I just... don't like it.
I'm more present on AO3, FFNet and tumblr. Feel free to come poke at me there!
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New Year!
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Well, 2019 has been here for five days (give or take depending on where you live on the world), and it's about time I wrote something on this page.
First of all, Happy New Year to everyone that stumbles across this journal. I do hope that 2019 brings you many good and happy things. 2018 wasn't exactly the best year for me. Well, it wasn't bad perse, but it wasn't good either. More like a dejected slump where I had no idea what to do with myself and my life. I tried to draw, and I failed. I tried to sculpt, and I was mildly successful. I tried to write, but nothing more than short stories could be accomplished (with a honorable mention of chapter 28 of Unwilling Partners).
I admit that I spent most of the time gallivanting, playing games, watching videos/anime, and reading here and there, but put no real effort on my projects. Mostly because while I do have a lot of ideas and aspirations, putting them into action is strangely hard for me. I was never good at completing things, since forever ago when I couldn't do any homework or school project till the end. I always grew bored of everything fairly easily, and even today it's a struggle to force myself to focus.
It doesn't help that I'm an awkward antisocial disaster, so finding a job to improve my economical conditions... well, let's just say I'm not trying anymore. I hope I can change this, but meh... hopeless fight anyone?
Yeah... weird. Especially since I seem so open on the internet. Ah... the wonders of an alias on the internet and a faceless monitor screen. Weird indeed.
Anyway, It's hard for me to admit this, but I might as well do it and start on a better road for this new year. I don't know if I'll be able to follow it, or if I'll fall into a swamp again (which is easy, because laying around requires much less effort than struggling with anything), but it's better to try than to just let myself go.
Damn, I should heed my own advice when I occasionally give it out.
*rambling mode off*
TL;DR
Aka: "I'm finally writing the long awaited 29th chapter of Unwilling Partners and I'm already 3 pages in. Dunno when it'll be out. Might be a week, a month, or two. But might as well start 2019 with a bang rather than a halfhearted whimper of self commiseration. I TOLD YOU PEOPLE I WAS NOT ABANDONING THIS THING! NOT WHILE I STILL DRAW BREATH!"
CHEERS!
First of all, Happy New Year to everyone that stumbles across this journal. I do hope that 2019 brings you many good and happy things. 2018 wasn't exactly the best year for me. Well, it wasn't bad perse, but it wasn't good either. More like a dejected slump where I had no idea what to do with myself and my life. I tried to draw, and I failed. I tried to sculpt, and I was mildly successful. I tried to write, but nothing more than short stories could be accomplished (with a honorable mention of chapter 28 of Unwilling Partners).
I admit that I spent most of the time gallivanting, playing games, watching videos/anime, and reading here and there, but put no real effort on my projects. Mostly because while I do have a lot of ideas and aspirations, putting them into action is strangely hard for me. I was never good at completing things, since forever ago when I couldn't do any homework or school project till the end. I always grew bored of everything fairly easily, and even today it's a struggle to force myself to focus.
It doesn't help that I'm an awkward antisocial disaster, so finding a job to improve my economical conditions... well, let's just say I'm not trying anymore. I hope I can change this, but meh... hopeless fight anyone?
Yeah... weird. Especially since I seem so open on the internet. Ah... the wonders of an alias on the internet and a faceless monitor screen. Weird indeed.
Anyway, It's hard for me to admit this, but I might as well do it and start on a better road for this new year. I don't know if I'll be able to follow it, or if I'll fall into a swamp again (which is easy, because laying around requires much less effort than struggling with anything), but it's better to try than to just let myself go.
Damn, I should heed my own advice when I occasionally give it out.
*rambling mode off*
TL;DR
Aka: "I'm finally writing the long awaited 29th chapter of Unwilling Partners and I'm already 3 pages in. Dunno when it'll be out. Might be a week, a month, or two. But might as well start 2019 with a bang rather than a halfhearted whimper of self commiseration. I TOLD YOU PEOPLE I WAS NOT ABANDONING THIS THING! NOT WHILE I STILL DRAW BREATH!"
CHEERS!
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*Insert Frustrated Noise Here*
2 min read
So, I've been struggling with myself lately. Both in creativity and life in general.
It does add up when you're trying to figure out what kind of job really want to do in life to not end up as a very bitter person that hates everything and is envious of everyone.
I like art and crafting, and I like doing it, although it does feel like it's a hopeless dead end, it's something I would love to pursue and make it as my profession.
THEN...
Then there are those people that just utterly destroy this dream with their words.
Like, yesterday.
Yesterday I managed to half do something that I find cute and that has hidden potential. It's just a simple wooden tablet with a few cherry blossom branches on it (still trying to figure out how to color it, or if I should go with different materials, like stone or... whatever), and I show it to my mom.
She says it's pretty, and I express my wish on being able to sell it and see how well it would be received (or if it would be ignored altogether).
And she goes and say something along the lines of "the market is full of this stuff."
AKA: "Forget it and get a "serious" job!"
GODDAMN LORD COOKIE!
What's up with the damn negativity?! You're supposed to SUPPORT me! Not shatter my feeble happiness of having done something decent in months of struggling!
I will eventually post this tablet thing when I'm done with it, so you can tell me if you think it could have a chance.
(I think my mom believes that art is only a hobby, and not a profession to be pursued, and that I don't have what it takes to be a professional artist, writer, or craftsman... craftswoman..?)
It does add up when you're trying to figure out what kind of job really want to do in life to not end up as a very bitter person that hates everything and is envious of everyone.
I like art and crafting, and I like doing it, although it does feel like it's a hopeless dead end, it's something I would love to pursue and make it as my profession.
THEN...
Then there are those people that just utterly destroy this dream with their words.
Like, yesterday.
Yesterday I managed to half do something that I find cute and that has hidden potential. It's just a simple wooden tablet with a few cherry blossom branches on it (still trying to figure out how to color it, or if I should go with different materials, like stone or... whatever), and I show it to my mom.
She says it's pretty, and I express my wish on being able to sell it and see how well it would be received (or if it would be ignored altogether).
And she goes and say something along the lines of "the market is full of this stuff."
AKA: "Forget it and get a "serious" job!"
GODDAMN LORD COOKIE!
What's up with the damn negativity?! You're supposed to SUPPORT me! Not shatter my feeble happiness of having done something decent in months of struggling!
I will eventually post this tablet thing when I'm done with it, so you can tell me if you think it could have a chance.
(I think my mom believes that art is only a hobby, and not a profession to be pursued, and that I don't have what it takes to be a professional artist, writer, or craftsman... craftswoman..?)
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OMG! OMG! OMG!!!
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It's been long. So very long. It's been so long that you might as well consider this as a "second season" of sort. I'm sure some of you lost hope, some may have forgotten, while other stopped caring, yet I kept mt own promise to myself and to those who asked.
That I would finish this fic even if it's the last thing I do, and no matter how long it took.
Granted, it's short compared to the previous chapters, and it needs a lot of shaping up, corrections and tweaking, but... BUT!!
Chapter 27 of Unwilling Partners is ALMOST HERE and I'm NOT horrified by it!
It might be days, or weeks, or maybe a month before I'm satisfied enough to release it, but it's here.
It's coming back.
That I would finish this fic even if it's the last thing I do, and no matter how long it took.
Granted, it's short compared to the previous chapters, and it needs a lot of shaping up, corrections and tweaking, but... BUT!!
Chapter 27 of Unwilling Partners is ALMOST HERE and I'm NOT horrified by it!
It might be days, or weeks, or maybe a month before I'm satisfied enough to release it, but it's here.
It's coming back.
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Deviantartist Questionnaire
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1- How long have you been on DeviantArt?
I've been here since 2004, that means it's... 11 years, more or less.
2- What does your username mean?
It's a long story of how I came up with my name, but I threw together the first and last letter of the alphabet, and added a "the Dragon" because of my passion for dragons.
3- Describe yourself in three words.
Ahh... kinda hard this one. "Daydreamer" for sure, "unfocused" because I'm unable to finish something, and somewhat "lazy", too.
4- Are you left or right handed?
Right handed.
5- What was your first deviation?
One of these three
6- What is your favourite type of art to create?
Narrative writing.
7- If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?
Drawing. At the moment my skills in drawing are more of a struggle than something I enjoy.
8- What was your first favourite?
*sucks in a breath* Heck if I remember. All I know for sure is that it's a Sonic the Hedgehog fanart, but my folder got modified so much that I have no idea which came first, and which came later.
9- What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?
It appears it's fanart. Often of the show I currently obsess over.
10- Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?
No one, really. Everyone is amazing in their own way that I can't pick a favorite!
11- If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?
Too shy to do that. Someone with my same interests, I suppose.
12- How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?
As much as this place has amazing people I watch, I'm often too shy to get to know someone deeply enough for them to impact my life like that.
13- What are your preferred tools to create art?
It used to be a word processor on the computer, but lately I found it's easier for me to write on real paper.
14- What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?
Home, when the tv is not on.
15- What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?
I don't exactly have one. I have an exceptionally bad memory when it doesn't come to my stories. I easily forget things, but I get a fuzzy and warm feeling each time I get a comment on one of my works.
2- What does your username mean?
It's a long story of how I came up with my name, but I threw together the first and last letter of the alphabet, and added a "the Dragon" because of my passion for dragons.
3- Describe yourself in three words.
Ahh... kinda hard this one. "Daydreamer" for sure, "unfocused" because I'm unable to finish something, and somewhat "lazy", too.
4- Are you left or right handed?
Right handed.
5- What was your first deviation?
One of these three
6- What is your favourite type of art to create?
Narrative writing.
7- If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?
Drawing. At the moment my skills in drawing are more of a struggle than something I enjoy.
8- What was your first favourite?
*sucks in a breath* Heck if I remember. All I know for sure is that it's a Sonic the Hedgehog fanart, but my folder got modified so much that I have no idea which came first, and which came later.
9- What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?
It appears it's fanart. Often of the show I currently obsess over.
10- Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?
No one, really. Everyone is amazing in their own way that I can't pick a favorite!
11- If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?
Too shy to do that. Someone with my same interests, I suppose.
12- How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?
As much as this place has amazing people I watch, I'm often too shy to get to know someone deeply enough for them to impact my life like that.
13- What are your preferred tools to create art?
It used to be a word processor on the computer, but lately I found it's easier for me to write on real paper.
14- What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?
Home, when the tv is not on.
15- What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?
I don't exactly have one. I have an exceptionally bad memory when it doesn't come to my stories. I easily forget things, but I get a fuzzy and warm feeling each time I get a comment on one of my works.
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